#cas' favourite heaven is a garden

[caught-a-ghost]

it is kinda funny how prevalent gardener cas is lol. like i don't mind it at all, but i don't remember him ever showing any interest in plants in the twelve years he was on the show, so i'm wondering if this is maybe a covid thing. people locked up in their houses writing fanfic bc they're upset with the finale while also desperate for outside-time and the trope taking off from there

[napoleonic-sexyman-tournament]

Propaganda under the cut because it's long:

Alexander I Pavlovich

a. “Maybe not the most handsome or charismatic man in this tournament, but he has ample chaotic neutral energy that both baffles and fascinates contemporaries. In short, if you're into mysterious men, you won't find a sexier enigma than our imperator.”

b. “Look. Is this or is this not the monsterfucking website.”

c. There are lots of monuments dedicated to him. There's one in Moscow in the Alexander Garden right by the Red Square. While nowhere near as grand as the Alexander Column, I think it's still worth showcasing!

The monument is meant to celebrate his victory in the 1812 Russian invasion. He's holding a sword, proudly standing on top of his enemies' weapon.

The sculptors, however, have never seen the man in their life - all the people involved in the making are still alive and well (i think), so that should tell how new it is. The monument was opened for the public just a decade ago in 2014.

d. quote about this bust from the memoirs of Sophie de Choiseul-Gouffier: “No painter was able to properly capture the features of his face and especially his soft expression. Alexander didn’t like to pose for portraits and they were mostly done with some stealth. In this case sculpture have produced a better likeness. The famed Thorvaldsen made a bust of this sovereign worthy of a hand of such a remarkable artist.”

e. His family nickname might have been ‘our angel’ and the medal commemorating his death bears the inscription “Our angel is in heaven”, but did you know that to this day Alexander looks down on Sankt Petersburg as an actual angel, wings, cross, trampled snake and all? Alas, you cannot see it from the ground, the Alexander Column being so very tall, but the statue of the angel on top certainly seems to take after our sexy thrice-angel Emperor.

f. Apotheosis of Alexander! An eminently universal image, perfectly serviceable for his rise to the throne… of Napoleonic Sexyman Tournament.

It really looks like Peter and Catherine are instructing the Electorate. Gentlevoters, surely you wouldn’t dream of disappointing Sasha’s Grandmother and his scantily clothed giant of a Great-great-grandfather?

g. What is sexier than a man in a dress???

Mikhail Miloradovich:

Miloradovich had a short episode as Catherine the Great's favourite at just eighteen. Alas, usually he's not included on the official list except by Barskov. That is because he was one of several concurrent boytoys candidates in 1789, before Zubov won the contest. But I believe that being to Catherine's taste adds to M's sexyman cred.

He never married, but according to his legend, he kept an entire trunk of love letters (from many, many ladies) in his palace, which was discovered after his death.

Miloradovich possessed the kind of cavalier fantasy that made him a hero among soldiers (and one of Suvorov's favourites). Hence these three popular stories:

Once, while on campaign, his soldiers decided to give M their best wishes on his name day. He was very gracious about it and told them with his best roguish smile that in thanks for their wishes he'd give them a present... that present being the nearest pretty-as-a-picture enemy column (French).

On one occasion Joachim Murat came out, sat down and demonstratively drank coffee during an active fire exchange. Miloradovich naturally couldn't be worse and asked for a table to be set for him. Also under the fire, because where else. "He's drinking coffee? I'm eating dinner here!" And it wasn't a singular event: more than once he and Murat conducted a peculiar gallant flirtation on the field. And yes, Miloradovich also had a weakness for very blingy bling.

Alas, M didn't get to carry a ladder (that we know of), but he didn't shy motivating his soldiers in similar ways. It just so happened that his scouting party came to a stop at a steep slope and froze. Miloradovich came forward, got on the ground and slid down the slope on his spine, laughing and generally having (or pretending to have) lots of fun.

[hollybell51]

An angel loved you

Navigation, Supernatural

Castiel x Goddess of life!Reader (but it could be gn)

Supernatural (2005), pre-canon

Request by @slayingyourmomrn

Hey I don't know if your taking requests (I'm kinda new to requesting) but I was wondering if you could do head cannons of Castiel falling in love with reader who is the goddess of life? X

Word count: 1.4K

Content: very little to be warned about, maybe some vague body-horror-ish stuff (angel true forms) and mentioned/implied sexual content.

Notes: I love this idea so much! I haven't done head canons before, so I'm not actually sure how this went, and omg i had so many ideas! I ended up going with the one that worked most comprehensively as this format, in pre-canon, and I'm honestly not 100% happy with it but I'm also a perfectionist trying to be ok with things that aren't my magnum opus (you can tell lmao). Either way, I tried, I hope this is ok!

Life is old, almost as old as God and Amara. Definitely older than an angel, even the first angel ever created 

Earth was your favourite place to be, purely because there was so much life everywhere – single cells dividing exponentially, then clusters of cells all striving to grow, then the first real creatures, algae and lichen and fungi and plants, then fish and amphibians and reptiles and finally mammals and, of course, humankind

You loved watching humans grow and cultivate the land, almost as much as God himself

But with that came fighting, and killing, and destruction. You’d met Cas after such a slaughter, you didn’t remember which one, but there were angels and demons involved and you hated it. Hated how humans got caught in the crossfire of heaven’s battles as much as you hated the purely human violence

You’d never seen an angel who didn’t look totally content and exalted with any of heaven’s actions, but there he was: shoulders of his human vessel slumped, wings hanging limply all around him, many eyes rolling slowly over the world, brilliantly sharp rings spinning slowly around his core

You’d approached, a little hesitant, and had eventually voiced your own sadness at the destruction

The angel seemed surprised, then wary, but had agreed with you: it was senseless and costly, and the humans in the middle did nothing to warrant being caught there

After that first conversation (maybe too rich a term, since it had consisted mainly of you simply standing next to him, just coexisting) he’d come back to find you, wherever you were, and gradually you’d begun to seek him out wherever he was somewhere you could reach 

As a goddess, you didn’t feel things the way humans did. You were ancient, after all, and that kind of thing took a long, long time

It was at the close of world war two that anything had really happened between you and him

You were mourning the genocide of an innocent people, Castiel was chafing against heaven’s refusal to do anything about it – despite the obvious rise in demonic power and the evil of the whole thing 

He’d come to you, frustrated (though not yet rebellious) and had sought comfort in your presence, you in his 

“Do you think we can feel?” he’d asked, uncertainty tainting his ethereal glow. “Angels aren’t supposed to, but I see them suffering, I see them dying and I… I want to stop it from happening.” 

“I don’t know,” you’d said after a pause. Uncertainty and doubt were not things angels were supposed to experience. You didn’t even know that was possible until you’d met Castiel, but you supposed any prototype was going to be different. 

“Do you?” he’d asked, rings clicking and whirring

“Feel?” 

“Yes.”

You’d thought about that, then nodded. The ache at your centre when you looked over the mass graves and shredded, bloody uniforms was feeling, certainly. The warmth when you watched children playing in a garden was a feeling. Even the tingling heat inside you when Castiel was around, lower and deeper, was a feeling. 

“I’m feeling now,” you’d said. “Are you?” 

“I don’t know. Maybe. It’s… confusing. I don’t know how they deal with it every day.” 

You’d laughed at that. “I don’t think they do.” 

A couple of floating, glowing eyes had spun to focus on you, blinking slowly. Then something soft had brushed against your form and you’d looked down to see a wing sliding over you, gentle and almost… nervous?

You didn’t need to actually breathe, but you sighed anyway. It felt good to touch him, to have him touching you. You’d leaned into the wing and brushed what passed for a hand over it, and the two of you had stayed like that for a long time

Things had continued as per usual after that, but you touched more often. His form couldn’t hurt you, goddess that you were, and you liked not being confined to a human’s perception. He saw you as you were, as you really were, and you saw him too. Rings, wings, many heads and eyes and limbs, the whole shebang. 

Maybe you’d been spending too much time among humans, maybe you should have gone back to your roots on one of Chuck’s newer and younger worlds, or headed down to the simpler environment of the ocean or a forest

You weren’t sure when it happened, but somewhere near the turn of the century, you realised that you loved Castiel, really loved him. It wasn’t like the love you felt for humans and plants and animals and life, either, it was hot and hard and roiled low inside you like hot syrup. And once the thought had occurred, you couldn't get it to go away

It was around this time that you melded your form into something substantial, still a goddess, but taking on a human appearance. It was heading into a harder time for gods and spirits, with new deities of money and technology and power and greed taking over. And climate change was wreaking havoc on your strength too, something Castiel seemed to realise – he was certainly spending more time with you

“I just feel so powerless all the time,” you sighed as you perched on one of his rings. The head of a deer stared back at you, then you blinked and it was a lion with snakes in its mane 

“You’re not powerless,” he told you. “I think other than God, you’re the most powerful being I’ve ever met.” 

“Thanks, Castiel. I just… I just wish that I was one of them, sometimes. Do you ever wish that?” 

Silence, then, “sometimes. I think it would be a lot simpler.” 

“Mhm. Just get born, grow, have babies, die. So simple.” 

He’d hummed, and the ring under you had cooled infinitesimally. You’d sat in silence for a while, then he’d asked, “do you really wish you were one of them?” 

“Huh?” 

“You said you sometimes wished you were one of them. Did you mean it?” 

You’d really had to think about that. It would be nicer, living a short life like that. Experiencing childhood. Falling in love with a person like you, marrying them, having a child. Growing a garden by hand and watering it every day. Cooking food because you needed it. Then dying when you got too old and life became too tiring. 

But then you’d only ever get to see what was in your lifetime, and on your limited plane of existence. You wouldn't get to watch a single cell turn into two, you wouldn’t remember the first fish crawling out of the sea, wouldn’t have met an angel, and certainly wouldn’t be sitting on him right now. 

“No,” you said, “not really.” You’d patted the ring under you, wobbling when a shining wing pushed at your back. “Besides,” you’d smiled, pushing the wing back. “I wouldn't get to do this.” 

“You’d be obliterated.” 

“Yeah. You’d have to find a vessel, and then I wouldn't be able to sit on you.” 

“I wouldn’t even know you existed if you were one of them,” he pointed out. 

“Maybe you’d be one too.” 

“Maybe. I wouldn’t like to be.” 

“Why?” 

“I wouldn’t get to see you.” 

That had flawed you for a second. 

“I love you too much to exist without knowing you.” 

You’d just smiled, reached out and taken a hand near you. “I love you too, Castiel.” 

After that, you were practically inseparable. You floated outside your form sometimes, with him, just to feel him on you, around you, in you. Sometimes, when he took a vessel, you’d share intimacy the way humans did

You discovered a love for sex with Castiel, in human form, where you could still see the rest of him beneath the surface and feel his grace all over you and inside your whole being 

You’d tell him you loved him, and he’d say it back to you, and sometimes you’d just get stuck in a cycle of “I love you”’s until one of you either flickered and became insubstantial, astronomical, ethereal, or was shut up by the other’s lips. Either way was fine with you

You were the goddess of life, and you were living, and you loved an angel. And an angel loved you. 

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[ohsc]

Inspired by the anon who asked abt Taylor Swift songs for the characters, what Taylor Swift song do you associate with your favorite spn ships? :D

hi!! omfg i LOVE this question tysm for sending it 🫶 i ended up only answering this for destiel because otherwise i would’ve rattled on for AGES, these also aren’t all the songs i have sooo many but i didn’t want to ramble on 😭

but here’s some of the ts songs i associate with destiel <3

• chloe or sam or sophia or marcus, specifically divorce arc destiel, “you said some things that i can’t unabsorb” / “just say you loved me the way that you were” from cas’ pov, how he struggled after everything that happened with dean

• down bad, “showed me this world was bigger than us, then sent me back where i came from” / “for a moment i was heaven struck” s4 destiel, dean discovering the angels and being enamoured by cas, discovering all that the angels had planned and how big the cosmic fight really was, only to be left back on earth being used as a pawn for the angels

• guilty as sin?, “without ever touching his skin how can i be guilty as sin?” / “you and me religiously” lots of referencing to sin and heaven and religion, pining between them

• cowboy like me (MY FAVOURITE SONG), “takes one to know one, you’re a cowboy like me” / “never wanted love just a fancy car” / “forever is the sweetest con” dean and cas both coming from absent fathers who moulded them into soldiers, both of them never prioritising love then finding each other “now you hang from my lips like the gardens of babylon” babylon in the bible represents sin and evil, cas sinning for dean

• gold rush, “i don’t like that falling feels like flying ‘til the bone crush” (one of the best lyrics ever) / “what must it be like to grow up so beautiful?” dean being enamoured by a literal angel, but being scared because he thinks it’ll end badly like it always does for him

• peace, “i could never give you peace” / “im a fire and i’ll keep your brittle heart warm” / “the devils in the details” / “family that i chose now that i see your brother as my brother” because of both of their lifestyles they will never know peace, but they will still love each other

[writersofdestiel]

Recently, we did a little reboot of our Weekly Words. You will find the details on our Discord Server. Meanwhile, we rounded up all the amazing fics that were created for Weekly Words in the year and a half since the challenge was created.

Time Flies by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: time flies

It's been ten years since Cas went to fight Heaven's war. Today, he's coming back. (Rated T, 0.5k)

Ash by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: rise from the ashes

Dean's shoulders tremble as they watch the flames devour everything he and Cas have built together. (Rated T, 1.1k)

Fate by @galaxystiel, prompt: rise from the ashes

“C’mon, it’ll be fun,” Dean tugged Castiel towards the storefront. “Don’t you want to find out who your soulmate is? Who you’re fated to be with?” (Rated T, 1.3k)

Equals by @galaxystiel, prompt: white wings

Castiel has one shot, and if it involves punching Crowley in the face? All the better. (Rated T, 1.3k)

Naps for Dogs and Men by @envydean, prompt: white wings

The golden retriever has been coming to Castiel's house for several weeks, taking a nap and then going back on his way and Castiel finally sends a note to his owner. (Rated T, 1.5k)

Runs in the Family by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: white wings

Dean's new boyfriend, Cas, has been wary about him meeting his child, Claire. Dean gets it, they've only been seeing each other for a few weeks. What Dean doesn't know is that Cas might have more reasons for worry than just a premature attachment. (Rated G, 1.4k)

The End and the Beginning by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: shooting star

There is only one way for Cas to escape The Empty's reach. (Rated T, 1.0k)

What Do You Wish For? by @envydean, prompt: shooting star

Dean, Cas, and their senior high school friends are on their annual camping trip. The sun has set and Cas wants some space to reset himself after a lot of socialising and Dean joins him. (Rated E, 1.5k)

Fearful by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: maze

It comes for children, it feeds on their fears. Dean and Cas arrive to end its reign of terror. (Rated T, 1.4k)

All Those Summer Nights by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: tell me more

It was the best summer of Dean's life - spent on relaxing, parties and fun. And most importantly, spent with a blue-eyed boy he met one day on a beach. But the summer's over now, the school year begins, and Dean's left with the memories of his first summer love. (Rated T, 1.4k)

Tell Me More by @thunderthighsmish, prompt: tell me more

“Good night, Dean. I’ll see you in 2 days. Be a good boy for me?” “I will,” Dean promised. “I love you.” (Rated E, 0.8k)

For Better Or Worse by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: through the fire

When they first meet, Cas saves Dean from school bullies. Over the years, their friendship only grows stronger. (Rated T, 1.4k)

Missing Piece by @fangirlingtodeath513, prompt: missing piece

Castiel and his garrison are given the assignment to rescue the Righteous Man from Hell. (Rated T, 0.8k)

Look What The Cas Dragged In by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: flowing teardrops

There’s a guest in the bunker. Dean’s nose is not a fan. (Rated G, 1.0k)

Teardrops For You by @envydean, prompt: flowing teardrops

The accident killed her and left Dean alive and emotionally broken. He's a disgrace. His best friend is dead and he can't even cry for her. (Rated T, 1.5k)

Christmas Sweaters In June by @envydean, prompt: ugly sweater

“Love,” Cas says suddenly in his ear. It makes Dean’s heart jump and his lungs constrict. “Wha-what?” Dean stutters, head turning to Cas whose eyes are still fixated on the screen. “L-O-V-E. Love, it’s the one you’re missing from this round.” Dean looks back down at his screen and sees Cas’ finger linking the letters together. “Oh,” Dean breathes. (Rated T, 1.5k)

Will You Bee my Valentine? by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: ugly sweater

Dean's tradition on Valentine's Day was always to go out and look for someone to spend the night, but this year he decided to stay home, which was his best decision. (Rated G, 1.1k)

I've Never Wished for Anything more than You by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: i wish

Dean has lost many people before—it’s practically a normal thing in his line of work—but none of them hurt as much as Castiel’s death. Especially because Dean is sure there’s no possible way for the angel to come back again. Or so he thought. (Rated G, 3.0k)

A Drive Under the Moonlight by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: moonlight

Dean has had a lot of fights with Sam—growing up so close together can do that—but sometimes he just can’t stand being near his brother, so he just takes Baby for a drive until his head gets clear. (Rated G, 2.5k)

Cas Loves Emoticons, Burgers, and Dean by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: emoji

Cas has always known that his husband can be a real pain most of the times, but he brings burgers so Cas always forgives him. (Rated G, 1.1k)

Dean + Alcohol = Loose Lips by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: too many beers

Dean has done some pretty stupid things while being drunk—there are some he would even rather not think about. But when he wakes up that morning, he’s pretty sure that what he did last night will be on his Top 3: after almost a decade of hiding his feelings from Cas, he just practically wrote them on a brick and threw it on his best friend’s face—or maybe that would’ve been a little more subtle than what he did. (Rated T, 4.3k)

Intoxicated by @envydean, prompt: too many beers

Cas finds Dean drunk in the fourth bar he searches after Dean sends some worrying texts to him. Dean has surpassed his flirty, chatty self and fallen headfirst into feeling utter desolation. It leaves Castiel to pick up the pieces. (Rated T, 1.4k)

The Case of the Missing Paper by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: origami

Dean has always been sure the bunker is haunted, even when everything pointed to the fact that it’s not. But when all of the paper in the bunker starts to go missing, Dean starts to think that maybe he’s right or there’s someone messing with him. (Rated G, 3.6k)

A Lost Teddy Bear and a New Found Love by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: stuffed animal

Dean has always been very responsible, especially when he needs to take care of his niece, Mary. But when they can't find her stuffed animal (a Stitch that's a few years younger than Sam), Dean starts to panic, not knowing what to do. Good thing the hot neighbor comes to save the day. (Rated G, 4.7k)

Meeting Emma by @deansrightfulangerissue, prompt: stuffed animal

Dean’s pacing the hospital corridor like some nervous expecting father. After all, that’s who he is right now. And the daughter he didn’t know he had will be here any moment. (Rated G, 1.9k)

Ambiguitatis Error Est by @fangirlingtodeath513, prompt: i miss how you were here

Dean's pulling away from his close-knit friend group and Castiel is determined to find out why. If he finds some other things out along the way, he won't complain. (Rated G, 1.6k)

Up On The Rooftop Greenhouse by @envydean, prompt: fighting destiny

Michael Shurley is Dean Winchester's true mate. Except, Dean has been in love and dating the Winchester house gardener, Castiel Novak, for nearly three years and Dean doesn't want that to stop. He needs to find a way out of the impending wedding before it's too late, especially when Michael shows his true colours. (Rated T, 5.0k)

With Eyes Wide Open by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: insomnia

Insomnia wasn’t one of Castiel’s favourite parts about humanity, but he loved what he could do in that free time—which, most of the time, involved Dean. (Rated G, 0.9k)

Cheer-Up Food by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: baking

Cas and Sam decide to make a pie for a grumpy Dean. (Rated G, 1.4k)

If Castiel Was A Cake by @envydean, prompt: baking

Castiel comes home to a stressed Dean baking a lot of cakes. So, he decides that a gathering of friends is the best way to keep Dean's mind off everything and it comes with a bonus extra Castiel has been waiting on for years. (Rated T, 2.0k)

As Many Kisses As You Want by @gii-heylittleangel, prompt: kiss me

Dean gets really hurt in a hunt and Castiel has no idea what he's supposed to do. He really doesn't. (Rated T, 4.4k)

Kiss Me by @peanutbutterjelly-pie (Aleakim), prompt: kiss me

Dean’s spur-of-the-moment ideas aren’t always the best, as lots of people are able to attest. And his last one really took the cake. Because now he’s unable to forget the taste of Castiel’s lips and he’s got no freaking clue how to deal with this. (Rated T, 4.2k)

The Dare On Your Lips by @envydean, prompt: kiss me

Dean Winchester has had the biggest crush on Castiel, but believes that Castiel isn't interested. Then on one drunken night, Dean is dared to kiss Castiel. (Rated T, 1.5k)

Not According To Plan by @peanutbutterjelly-pie (Aleakim), prompt: proposal gone wrong

A fire truck, a smoky kitchen and an unexpected surprise are awaiting Dean after coming back home from work. (Rated G, 1.7k)

Proposal Gone... Right? by @fangirlingtodeath513, prompt: proposal gone wrong

Dean's been planning this proposal for a long time, but on the day he's actually supposed to propose, nothing seems to go his way. Will he actually manage to propose without everything falling apart? (Rated G, 1.1k)

[goldrushzukka]

Hey what destiel fic 👀 also not to encourage corrupting the dashes of ur atla mutuals but, do u have any other good destiel fic rec? Sry I don’t choose to b this way it’s brain rot I’m sure u understand 💖

im currently reading four letter word for intercourse by bendingsignpost because im apparently the only idiot on the planet who hasn't. 194k, rated e, VERY porny and VERY good. ive been out of the au game for a while w destiel but this is really very very good. i'm posting more abt it on my spn sideblog @sapphicrowena

as for other recs! i have MANY:

the chronicles of dean's bisexuality by mnwood (@deancasheadcanons on tumblr but not all that active anymore). 200k, rated e. essentially a retelling of supernatural if dean were canonically and openly bisexual from the start. i read this when it was still being updated way back a million years ago, and i re-read it recently to see if it still holds up, and it does.

tall grass by aeli_kindara. 57k, rated e. post-series retirement fic (blessedly written before the actual end of the series, and therefore good). cas starts a garden and i spend the rest of my life recommending this fic to people.

assimilation by komodobits. 5k, rated m. set nebulously after 12x01 when mary comes back, follows her adjusting to 21st century life, trying to figure out what the deal is with dean and cas and if she's okay with what she finds. i think about this fic all the time and i wish there were more like it.

seek to know you better by ahurston. 32k, rated e. dean and cas tackle the "36 questions that lead to love" while roadtripping. this is one of those fics where i wish id written it myself, it's that good.

according to all known laws of life by sobsicles. 29k, rated e, post-s15 fix-it. cas comes back from the empty, and dean is an asshole about things, so cas is an asshole right back. no one writes bitchy cas like sobsicles. absolute fucking goldmine.

oh sooner or later it all comes down to faith by sobsicles. 62k, rated e, post-canon heaven ending. more bitchy cas excellence from sobsicles, this time with a side of john winchester getting beaten the fuck up. genuinely perfect in every way.

dean and cas' top 13 zepp traxx by pantheon_of_discord. 82k, rated e. a bunch of case fics all rolled into one, linked by led zeppelin songs and tracking dean and cas's relationship as it goes from platonic to more or less marital. i cannot stress enough how good this fic is. i read it all in one sitting like 3 days before christmas and it i have thought about it every single day since without fail.

these are just my favourites but if you're looking for any specific trope or au i probably have a rec for that too! my destiel fic consumption is prolific and varied and i am always happy to provide : )

[tasteslikemolecules]

39, 56

39. What does having Purgatory as an alternate place for nonhuman subspecies to go when they die represent? What does Eve represent?

I honestly never got the point of Eve’s storyline so I’m not sure what she represents (but I liked how creepy she was in the vessel of the little girl). I think she’s most interesting in the sense that while she created monsters, she’s not their God, she’s only their creator and mother. In the show you have that dichotomy of angels and monsters, and angels both report to and are made by God, while demons have a different creator than the person they ‘report’ to. It seems almost more balanced. But of course God created purgatory and Eve too, so he’s the ‘father’ of demons too. If God created purgatory to contain Leviathans (although why didn’t he just destroy them or change them?) and purgatory created Eve who created all the monsters, then he might not have planned any of that. Who knows if the other worlds have purgatories at all. All the different worlds and the different spheres and realms within those worlds? It sounds a bit much.  It’s odd that when angels die they go the empty, but when demons and monsters die they go either to hell to purgatory or to the empty. We never really learn how that decision is made when they are so different. Purgatory and hell seem hard, but they seem like being alive in some way. And if you think of how Dean and Benny felt in purgatory, like they were having a purpose and like life made sense - it’s strange to send anyone there as a form of ‘punishment’. Besides, the forest looked really lush. It���s also more real than any of the other post-death spheres, especially compared to heaven. It’s more like being stuck in a brutal video game than drugged into a fake memory dream. It seems better in some way than the alternatives.  What would of your favourite way for Cas’s empty deal to be handled would have been? 

I thought the whole deal was stupid as the empty had no good reason for making it. It was very clearly drama for drama’s sake. But if it has to be there, I definitely would have wanted it resolved differently, not just because the scene itself played out so strangely. I don’t buy that Cas’ greatest happiness is confessing his feelings. A serious answer: I don’t know how I would have wanted it to be handled. Probably by them defeating the empty before the deal goes through. I don’t like that Cas’ died because of something so silly. 

Alternate answer: Cas realizes Dean’s not going to give him the time of day, and also he’s been torturing his son for the past years. In Co-parenting Jack with Sam he finds true happiness away from infatuation and finds long-lasting love. The empty comes to claim him but they just hop into an alternative world without monsters (God didn’t destroy all other worlds because that was silly too), where they renovate an old barn, get rid of rusty nails etc, get a rescue dog and have a big herb garden for Sam’s spells. 

[garbagequeer]

Do you have any favourite destiel fanfictions?

i gotta be honest here and make it clear that my attention span has been shot to shit lately so much of what ive read these days ive basically skimmed and jumped aroud different parts and stuff AND im a sucker for domesticity also i havent gone back to check out whatever i have bookmarked from 500 years ago so. that said i really liked:

some thoughts you have while falling (1500 words) literally what it says on the tin. cas centric as in this is just cas’s thoughts but like is it not about a gay little angel falling and thinking about how it is brave to have a human life to age to remember and to go to the grocery store

to change the things we can (2k) 15x18 fix it. what if... you made a deal w the empty and i didnt let it take you... and i did this through the world’s weirdest hug. haha jk..unless

conversations with the living (3500 words) 15x18 fix it dean and sam talk about The Childhood Trauma of it all and dean accepts love 

a love of all things that grow (5k) cas starts a garden and dean builds him shit and cas is like. well he must not like me very much like. girl he MADE you a little bench just big enough for 2 hello?? i love it when it’s busy at the secret underground bunker and the gay angel gets insecure

occursus (5k) dean and cas discuss the handprint and i am so endeared by cas here cause thats just dean girl shit

a real chore (5k) human cas dean has to like. learn not to be overbearing and let people help him out and handle their own lives. may we all project

bron-yr-aur (5k) missing scenes for that time dean and jack went fishing. not dean/cas centric but literally they are coparenting a little guy and it’s the sweetest shit imo

a river leads you home (10k) dean comes back home after the shit w michael w cas’s handprint from 2008 back on his shoulder and his scar from michael on the other. please look away from my personal feelings about dean’s possession arc

cuckoo and nest (10k) established relationship. dean is particular about his space. cas takes it to mean he’s not welcome to stay and dean is afraid he’ll leave cause that’s just what they do theyre just so dumb

under the same sun (14k) finale heaven fix it but dean and charlie get to hang out and talk about cas so dean can begin to get his head out of his ass. cas and dean do household chores in literal actual heaven like. for the hell of it 

the family business (15k) sometimes we must indulge in post finale fix it fics where dean kills his father

crazy diamonds (25k) 2008 dean and 2018 who is in a relationship w cas swap places. wish 2008 cas (who is not taking it well at all obviously) was in this more but otherwise a good time

on drowning (29k) human cas has a near death experience yay

where the weeds take root (30k) THEY ARE LIVING TOGETHER IN SOME FARMHOUSE??? CAS WANTS TO RAISE CHICKENS LIKE. THATS WHAT I THOUGHT YOUD SAY YOU GAY FUCKING ANGEL...

and this your living kiss (57k) i usually hate aus but this is THE au. basically dean used to be a published poet under a pseudonym and cas is a lit professor whose poetry class dean decides to attend (no weird teacher/student dynamics it’s all very normal). draws parallels to dean and cas’s arcs in canon in a great way through teaching and writing tbh and dean’s complicated relationship with his dead piece of shit dad is depicted really well too

im probably forgetting some but well. look at me posting destiel fic recs in 2020 who would’ve thought? not me!

[serielleofficial]

I was rewatching the conversation in heaven between Bobby and Dean in episode 15x20 - and these parts really stood out to me:

“... heaven ain’t just reliving your golden oldies anymore, it’s what it always should have been - everyone happy, everyone together...”

“... it ain’t just heaven Dean, it’s the heaven you deserve... We’ve been waiting for you”

The discussion had me think me thinking, this isn’t random and it’s probably Cas’s doing.

The first thing Cas does when he returns from the empty is help Jack rebuild the world that Dean lives in. He longs to seen Dean so badly that he almost drops everything and just goes, but he stays the path - insistently reminding himself that Jack needs him and this is ultimately what the whole of humanity needs right now.

After the 32nd time he resists, he is relieved to find that it’s getting easier.

When Jack sits him down one quiet afternoon and tells him that Dean will entering heaven sooner than he thought, his first reaction is anger/sadness and he immediately leaves without saying a word. All he can think about is how unfair it is that Dean doesn’t get a chance at a normal life - a life without horrors, a real chance at happiness. After everything he’s done, he’ll be stuck in an eternity of memories he knows are only half happy and he hates it.

He spends days, pacing back and fourth in the garden of his favourite heaven - and it’s not until much later on, when he’s almost lost all hope, that the realisation suddenly hits him. There’s still something he can do for him, there’s still a place Dean can have those things-

And when he appears before Jack with blue eyes glimmering, it’s met with a knowing smile.

Before Cas hatches his plan, he first visits Bobby - suddenly appearing before him and causing him to drop his beer. When Bobby finally realises it’s him, he laughs heartily before he pulls the angel in for a tight hug - calling him an idgit and asking what the hell took him so long.

They sit at the dining table for what seems like days, Bobby wanting to know every detail of what he’s missed and Cas eagerly relaying the events. At the end of it, Bobby sits back overwhelmed and he’s torn between being relieved his sons are ok and irritated that he couldn’t be there to help them.

“What happens now?” he asks, absentmindedly swirling the beer at the bottom of the bottle. “Now, we rebuild heaven”

There’s plenty of questions that Cas has for Bobby, mainly about the human experience in heaven and ways they can improve it. Between replanning, Bobby entertains him with stories about the boys when they were younger and his experiences hunting with Rufus. Cas smiles easily as they discuss everything over some cold beers and a fresh cherry pie that Karen bakes them - it’s the most at home he’s felt since he’s gotten back.

When they’re done, Bobby eyes the angel in front of him that has literally begun to glow and he feels a tug at his lips. Bobby isn’t an idgit, he knows exactly what Cas really means when he tells him “Im going to build the heaven you all deserve” and he can’t help but feel like he’s gained another son.

While they’re saying their goodbyes, Bobby places a hand on his shoulder and squeezes gently. “When he gets here” he starts, blue eyes quickly darting to his “you make sure he sees me first” He knows he doesn’t have to specify who and Cas feels a little embarrassed as if he’s been caught -

But when Dean finally enters heaven, Cas keeps his promise.

[arcticfox007]

Somewhere to Belong

Bonus! I’m posting this next segment faster than I anticipated because I was really excited about writing it <3

Destiel December Challenge 2020

Day 14: Hot Cocoa

This is a continuation of previous days in the challenge, you can find them on my masterpost or on AO3. Day 15 will technically wrap up the story but depending on how long it goes I may also do an epilogue. 

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               On the night of Christmas Eve Dean couldn’t sleep. Things had been going so well for him that he’d become convinced it was going too well. Which was, of course, ridiculous, but since when had anything gone the right way for him? He stared at his ceiling trying to will his brain to shut the hell up and let him get some sleep. He told himself that there was absolutely no reason to believe it would all come crashing down. He and Cas had been getting along amazingly well, Sam was happy that Dean was happy, and it was Christmas tomorrow and he was fairly certain his gift to Cas would go over well. He even deviated somewhat from his normal gift for his health freak of a brother because he was feeling the Christmas spirit or whatever. So, yeah, if only his mind wouldn’t keep turning to all the ways tomorrow could go wrong, maybe he’d be awake enough in the morning to enjoy the holiday.

               Ten minutes later Dean knew he wasn’t going to fall asleep anytime soon. He let out a frustrated groan, pulled on warm socks, and added a sweatshirt over the Christmas PJs Charlie had gotten him (yeah, they were ridiculous, but they’d promised Charlie they would wear them, and they were warm and soft so he couldn’t really complain). He begrudgingly made his way to the kitchen, thinking that maybe eating more pie would help him feel better. Sam kept doubting his ability to consume all the pie he and Cas had baked, but Dean was determined to make sure no pie was left behind. He smelled chocolate as he walked into the kitchen and found Cas turning off the stove.

               “I don’t suppose there’s enough for a second cup of whatever smells so amazing?” Dean peers over Castiel’s shoulder having long ago stopped complaining about personal space. Cas smiles softly and starts pouring the hot cocoa as Dean notices there are already two mugs out on the counter. Cas then throws extra marshmallows in Dean’s mug, without Dean even having to ask.

               “I had a feeling you would have trouble sleeping. I know you and Sam haven’t had many happy Christmases.” Dean takes the offered mug from Castiel, a lump forming in his throat as it occurs to him that not only does his angel (and surely there’s no harm in just thinking of Cas as his angel) know him well enough to anticipate that he’d have a hard time sleeping, but he’s also aware enough of how much Dean dislikes the cold seeping into the bunker with all the snow, that he made him a hot drink. With extra marshmallows.

               “Thanks Cas. Want to hang out by the tree?” Cas grabs his own mug and follows Dean out to the couch they had moved by the tree earlier. There’s one blanket tossed over the arm and Cas drapes it over Dean’s shoulders before sitting down himself. The sit in comfortable silence for a few minutes as Cas gazes at the tree and Dean tries to not gaze at Cas. Dean smiles fondly at his mug as he drains the last of the hot chocolate his maybe more than best friend had made for him. Even when he and Cas had fought over the years, even when he’d felt betrayed by Cas, he’d never failed to try and look after Dean. As much as Dean had been furious at the angel over many times over, he also knew that he didn’t have much ground to stand on. In fact, he sometimes worried that Cas had learned a little bit too much about being a Winchester – most of Cas’ mistakes were made in the attempt to protect those he cared about. Most days Dean still wasn’t sure how he could possibly deserve someone like Castiel in his life. Cas really would have gone with him to what he’d thought was his death only a few months back, just so Dean wouldn’t have had to go alone.

               “Dean,” Cas says softly. “Merry Christmas.”

               Dean glances at his watch and notes that it is technically Christmas now.

               “Merry Christmas Cas.” They sit contentedly side by side for a few moments longer. Eventually Dean has an idea. He wasn’t sleeping anyway, so maybe he and Cas could exchange gifts privately now, rather than trying to find time to ditch Sam tomorrow.

               “Hey, Cas. You said you wanted to exchange gifts with just us, right? We could do that now if you wanted.” Dean was somewhat nervous about what Castiel would think of his gift, especially since he’d put so much work into it. Cas’ face lights up at Dean’s suggestion.

               “Yes, if you’re not tired. Can – can you go first though? Mine’s… a bit unorthodox.” Dean was now intensely curious but brushed that feeling aside in favor of the anxious anticipation of giving Cas his present.

               “No problem. It’s not under the tree though, and you need to be quiet so we don’t wake up Sammy.” Dean grabs Cas’ empty mug and drops the dishes off in the kitchen before coming back to drag Cas down the hall towards the living area.

               “Is it in your room?” Cas seemed confused. Dean just laughs softly and pulled him a bit further down the hall. Dean stops in front of one of the doors and opens it up without hitting the light switch. Dean takes a deep breath to calm himself, weaves his finger’s through Cas’, and pulls him into the dark room, closing the door behind them.

               “Hold on, let me find the switch.” Dean fumbles around for a few seconds and then switches on the string lights draped around the room. Cas doesn’t say anything for a long stretch of time, his eyes wide as he takes in the bed with a navy-blue bed set, the giant stuffed bee pillow that Dean thinks is called a pillow pal or something, the used dresser they had dragged out of storage and set up an old boombox on top of, the mismatched mirror and cork board with pins, the desk with the laptop Cas often uses next to a charging station, and the constellation themed throw rug on the floor. The walls had been painted a pale blue and there were two framed posters of what Dean thought were botanical gardens on the wall. The door Dean had closed had a hook on the back, with a soft robe and ridiculous fuzzy bee slippers that Sam had managed to find somewhere.

               “Dean – I – what is all of this?” Cas’ voice is timid as he reaches out to touch the microfiber comforter on the bed.

               “It’s yours. I know you’ve been camped out in a different room, but I couldn’t set all this up in there without you noticing.”

               “Mine? I… I don’t actually need to sleep or anything.” Dean smiles at his friend and moves over towards the dresser, opening one of the drawers to show off more of the gift to Cas.

               “Sure, none of us need Charlie’s Christmas PJs, but we’re all wearing them anyway. Look, we got you a few changes of clothing if you ever want them. There’s also a wardrobe we can drag up here if you need more than a few hooks for hanging up stuff. The bookshelf by the desk is mostly empty because Sam and I thought you’d want to move your books from the other room. Also, I know you can research in the library but you can also work in here if mine and Sam’s bickering gets to be too much. Um, anyway, I just want you to feel at home, because this is your home as much as it is ours Cas. You always have a place with us. I really hope it helps you to feel like you belong here with us.” Dean’s face had gone a bit red and he cuts himself off before he becomes too incoherent. He’s still a bit nervous but then Cas’ arms are around him before he even realizes that the angel had moved. Cas’ face is buried in Dean’s neck and after the initial shock wears off Dean returns the embrace.

               “Thank you. Thank you, Dean. It’s beautiful.” Cas’ voice is muffled by Dean’s neck but Dean gets the point regardless.

               “I’m really glad you like it. I’m hoping this means you’ll be here with us more often.” Cas nods weakly and then draws back from the hug, looking around the room again with something akin to awe on his face. It’s amazing to Dean that an angel who used to live in Heaven could feel anything like awe while looking at the small room in the bunker, but maybe this is more of a home than Castiel has had in a long time, maybe ever. Dean spends a few more minutes showing Cas everything in the room and offers to help Can move over anything he has stored elsewhere. Cas hugs the bee pillow when he thinks Dean isn’t looking and Dean plays along as if he hadn’t seen. Dean can’t help smiling at how happy he’s made Cas, it makes up for not having realized that Cas was missing this in the first place, at least a little bit.  

               “Thank you again, Dean. I’d like to give you your gift now, if that’s okay.” Cas looks almost shy when he looks up at Dean through his eyelashes while sitting on his new bed. Dean’s breath catches for just a second, Cas’ beauty just hits him like that sometimes.

               “Sure Cas,” Dean says a bit breathlessly, “lead the way.” Dean follows his angel back into the hall thinking that, while he’s sure he will love whatever Cas got him, the best present is knowing that he possibly had helped Cas feel like he really did belong here with him.

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@galaxycastiel, @jellydeans, @my-favourite-hellatus, @nguyenxtrang

[casismymrdarcy]

Did you think..Cas ever told Dean how his favourite place in heaven is the Garden of Eternal Tuesday Afternoon so when it's time to pick up Cas's resting place, he chooses a garden with a windmill, the closest thing he could could think of, thinking Cas would like it here...

[wildwcmen]

PINTEREST + PLAYLIST!

Basic Information

Full Name: Cassiopeia Byeol Lee

Nickname(s): Cass

Age: 21-29

Date of Birth: September 30

Hometown: San Francisco, CA

Ethnicity: Korean

Nationality: American

Gender: Cis Woman

Pronouns: She/Her

Religion: Polytheism

Occupation: Artist, student, art teacher, youtuber/streamer (verse dependent)

Language(s) Spoken: English, Korean and some Spanish

Accent: She basically has a valley girl accent

Physical Appearance

Face Claim: Jennie Kim

Hair Colour: Black, dark brown

Eye Colour: Dark brown

Height: 5′2

Weight: 110-120 lbs

Build: Petite, weight fluctuates somewhat significantly depending on her mental health, usually carries more weight in her thighs and hips.

Tattoos: Cassiopeia constellation tattoo on her shoulder, moon phases down her spine, hands from creation of adam on her underboob, libra tattoo above her right elbow, this on her left arm, this on her tummy, sailor moon tattoo on her left ankle, the word ‘heaven’ in small font tattooed on her left inner thigh, in her own handwriting.

Piercings: Ears

Clothing Style: Rotates between casual attire (oversized t-shirts, shorts, etc.) and club attire (with a lot of glitter). 

Usual Expression: Distracted, confused, smiling, stoned.

Distinguishing Characteristics: Chubby cheeks, pouty lips.

Health

Conditions: C-PTSD, bipolar disorder

Sleeping Habits: She sleeps as late as possible, and usually wakes up very early. Often doesn’t need much sleep at all, other times she’ll sleep all day. Tries to avoid sleep sometimes. Frequent C-PTSD induced night terrors.

Eating Habits: Her diet is the combination of an unhealthy college student and a hippie grandma. She loves fresh fruit (especially mango and pineapple), but she also eats a lot of Taco Bell and McDonalds. She can’t really cook all that well, so she relies heavily on takeout and fast food.

Exercise Habits: She does yoga on the daily and tries to avoid any other forms of exercise.

Emotional Stability: 3/10

Sociability: She prefers being social and hates being alone. During depressive episodes, she will self isolate without meaning/wanting to.

Drug Use: Yes. Marijuana, shrooms, lsd, mdma, sometimes cocaine.

Alcohol Use: Yes.

Personality

Label: The Fallen Star

Positive Traits: affectionate, creative, friendly, funny, philosophical, caring

Negative Traits: emotional, sensitive, clingy, changeable, fickle, flirtatious, obsessive

Fears: Dying young (and alone), losing the people she cares about, never finding love

Hobbies: Painting, cosplay, yoga, meditation, pottery, smoking weed, collecting bongs & pipes, sex (she considers this a hobby).

Habits: Rubbing her temples (when stressed), bouncing/wiggling, leg jiggling, apologizing, doodling, flipping/playing with her hair.

Favourites

Weather: Hot, humid, summer weather.

Colour: Lilac

Music: Chill, vibing pop music and hip hop. Mitski, Jay Som, J. Cole, Maude Latour, Childish Gambino.

Movies: Weird indie movies, sci-fi & stoner comedies. Fifth Element, Star Wars, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Kevin Smith.

Sport: None, unless she’s watching a hot guy play.

Beverage: non-alcoholic is pineapple juice, alcoholic is AMF.

Food: Crunchwrap Supreme

Animal: Frogs

Family

Father: Sirius Lee (he has a different birth name, he literally changed his name because he’s a star nerd)

Mother: Aimee Lee

Sibling(s): Jeffrey Lee, Leon Lee, Jade Lee.

Children: Oliver Gray (adopted, only in her supernatural verse)

Pet(s): Orion (french bulldog, 10 years old)

Family’s Financial Status: Upper middle class

Extra

Zodiac Sign: Libra sun, Aries moon, Pisces rising

MBTI: ENFJ

Enneagram: The Romantic

Temperament: Sanguine

Hogwarts House: Self identified Hufflepuff, actually a Gryffindor

Moral Alignment: Chaotic Good

Primary Vice: Lust

Primary Virtue: Kindness

Element: Water

Flaws

moody | short-tempered | emotionally unstable | whiny | controlling | conceited | possessive | paranoid | lies | impatient | cowardly | bitter | selfish | power-hungry | greedy | lazy | judgmental | forgetful | impulsive | spiteful | stubborn | sadistic | petty | unlucky | absent-minded | abusive | addict | aggressive | childish | callous | clingy | delusional | cocky | competitive | corrupt | cynical | cruel | depressed | deranged | egotistical | envious | insecure | insensitive | lustful | delinquent | guilt complex | reclusive | reckless | nervous | oversensitive | avoidant | restless.

Strengths

honest | trustworthy | thoughtful | caring | brave | patient | selfless | ambitious | tolerant | lucky | intelligent | confident | focused | humble | generous | merciful | observant | wise | clever | charming | cheerful | optimistic | decisive | adaptive | calm | protective | proud | diligent | considerate | compassionate | good sportsmanship | friendly | empathetic | passionate | reliable | resourceful | sensible | sincere | witty | funny.

Skills & Hobbies

art | acting | astronomy | animals | archery | sports | beach combing | ballet | bird watching | blacksmithing | boating | calligraphy | camping | candle making | casino gambling | ceramics | racing | chess | music | cooking | crochet | weaving | exercise | swordplay | fishing | gardening | ghost hunting | ice skating | magic | engineering | building | inventing | leather-working | martial arts | meditation | origami | parkour | people watching | swimming | puppetry | pyrotechnics | quilting | reading | collecting | shopping | socializing | storytelling | writing | traveling.

Personality quirks & information for me to keep track of...

Cass is dramatic as a default, but that’s not how she reacts when she’s truly hurt. When she’s actually upset she’s more inclined to shut down emotionally, to completely detach herself. Don’t “worry” about her if she’s throwing a fit, worry about her when she stops talking entirely. If she’s still passionately active in a relationship/connection in a way that involves her usual dramatics, she’s still in it. If she shuts down and gives up, she’s already over it. In short, her dramatics can be annoying, but it’s a sign that she still cares and wants to work things out. If she didn’t, she would be long gone.

[helianthus21]

okay heli, 001 + destiel // 002 + castiel, and also Charlie ✨

when I started shipping it if I did: i don’t really remember, maybe sometime around On The Head Of A Pin when Uriel tattled about how much Cas like-likes Dean 🤭

my thoughts: god tier of ships, they have it all: enemies to friends to lovers, battle couple, mutual pining, amnesia, ... what’s missing is bed sharing and fake relationship but we get that in fanfic land

What makes me happy about them: their utter devotion to each other:’) and how they still sometimes piss each other off like an old married couple hehe

What makes me sad about them: that they’re not canon hahaha (and the s9 thing That Did Not Happen yikes)

things done in fanfic that annoys me: them being parents to you-know-who; when one of them is the possessive kind of jealous

things I look for in fanfic: mutual pining, but also established relationship, enemies to lovers, protective!Dean even tho Cas doesn’t need it...

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Dean: Lisa (but not really after seasons of her absence). Cas: no one? I can’t imagine him with anyone else tbh

My happily ever after for them: they grow old together (Cas either makes himself age with Dean or not either is fine), they hunt until they settle down but are still involved in the hunting community as the new Bobbys, and when Dean dies, Cas joins him in his Heaven:’)

who is the big spoon/little spoon: they take turns:) they’re both so used to the protector role, but it’s nice for the both of them to feel protected too sometimes

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: watching movies together, watching the other fixing cars/gardening, road trips, listening to the mixtape together:’)

002 | Castiel

How I feel about this character: I LOVE HIM WITH MY WHOLE HEART ;_; one of the best characters ever

All the people I ship romantically with this character: just Dean :D

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Balthazar, Sam, Charlie, Anna, Gabriel

My unpopular opinion about this character: not that unpopular but controverse: i want him to stay an angel:’D and that his s6 “sins” are overly demonized when it wasn’t anything any of TFW hasn’t already done or would’ve done

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: that canon had developed his complicated relationship with Claire, given him a sense of family with both the angels + the Winchesters, given him his powers back, given him a cohesive journey to recover from his trauma

my OTP: Destiel

my cross over ship: i don’t ship him with anyone but Dean, but it would be funny to see Jack Harkness flirting with him:D

a headcanon fact: not originally my hc but i love the idea that he likes gardens bc of his favourite Heaven, and that he’s a little bit scared of swimmng bc of the Leviathan thing. and that he talks in Enochian or slips into any other language when he’s distracted/angry/emotional

002 | Charlie

How I feel about this character: LOVE HER!!!;_;

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Gilda, Jo, Alicia Banes

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Dean, Cas, Kevin

My unpopular opinion about this character: AU!Charlie? I don’t know her 🙃

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:  i wish they had not KILLED HER LMAO. also that she’d become best friends with Cas and met Donna and Kevin

my OTP: hmm Charlie/Gilda I guess

my cross over ship: i’ve been thinking she’d love to go on adventures with Rose Tyler but then I already ship Rose/Doctor so much.. hmm maybe Vanya Hargreeves, she’d def. give her all the love. or Raven Reyes from The 100

a headcanon fact: not sure if it’s a hc but she lives with TFW + Kevin (+ later also Eileen) in the Bunker :)

ask game | ask me

[vvivacious101]

Re-rewatching S05E16 - Dark Side of the Moon

Oh god, this episode totally floored me. There is so much happening in this one but despite the information overload, this episode is phenomenal. I can already tell this is going to be a long post.

So, in “Dark Side of the Moon” Dean and Sam die and go to Heaven where Cas tells them not to let the angels find them yet because he sees this as an opportunity to talk to Joshua. Joshua is an angel who resides in the garden at Heaven and is rumored to talk to God, so Cas needs Sam and Dean to find the garden and talk to Joshua. Meanwhile, Zachariah is looking for the boys so he can put them back into their meatsuits so they can play their parts in the apocalypse but not before he gets some time to play (read torture) with them.

Zachariah is an interesting character. I have somehow always liked his character. He reminds me of Crowley.

Zachariah is an overacheiver, a teacher’s pet who thought his job would be so easy. Getting two monkeys to play their part, how hard could it be? He, of course, had never met the Winchesters and I get how he feels. Even though he is a dick, I understand the place where his anger comes from but I guess he does a pretty good job of illuminating that place himself.

Let me tell you something. I was on the fast track once. Employee of the Month, every month forever. I’d walk these halls, and people would AVERT THEIR EYES! I HAD RESPECT! And then, they assigend me you.

And the rest as they say is history. His downfall is so total that it’s almost comedic, but he was an interesting piece of this apocalyptic puzzle.

This dialogue of his from this epiosde is one of my favourites.

Wow. Running from angels... On foot... In heaven. With out-of-the-box thinking like that, I'm surprised you guys haven't stopped the apocalypse already.

Zach catches up with the boys and just as he is really getting started, Joshua arrives on the scene and tells Zach to let Sam and Dean go as God demands it and they get rescued.

This entire season especially after the Colt didn’t pan out, finding God was the only way they had of averting the apocalypse and Joshua basically tells them ‘sorry, no dice’.

But he also mentions other interesting facts about God that I didn’t pay attention to earlier like the fact that he is on Earth and that the amulet wouldn’t enable them to find him, which is an interesting way to put it because in season 11 we will learn that the amulet was basically turned off and thus doesn’t actually work the way it’s supposed to.

So we get that God doesn’t want to intervene. He feels like he has done enough which brings me to another realisation - why did he intervene in the first place why did he put Sam and Dean on the aeroplane, why did he bring Cas back?

The first one is easy to answer when Sam and Dean are in the convent as Lucifer’s cage is opening two things are clear, number one, an archangel going supernova could probably be fatal and since Dean and Sam are critical to what comes next having them killed does no good, number two, considering what had just happened no way was Sam going to say yes to Lucifer on the spot. So Sam and Dean would have to be broken down gradually like we have been watching all season, so even if God hadn’t interevened on the first count nothing major would have changed. But the second question isn’t that easy to answer.

Why did God bring Cas back? In season five, Cas has done very little to influence events. He could easily be written off. The problem is that when Cas came back I immediately felt it was because he still had a part to play but the problem is Cas doesn’t come back to do something Cas comes back because he surprised the hell out of God. Things become really clear when you realise that God is Chuck. Chuck who sees Cas rip up the ending and still be brave enough to stand up to an archangel. Chuck who sees Cas and is inspired beyond belief because for the first time the omniscient has found his blind spot and he is intrigued by Cas and that’s why Cas comes back because of the story he changed, the story that didn’t go the way it was supposed to.

But now God is done, after all what he wants is to see his favourite story end the way it was always meant to and Sam, Dean and Cas are no longer interesting as they increasingly fall into the ruts of his story. In this very episode, both Cas and Dean lose their faith and things look very bleak. So in God’s POV the story is going where it’s supposed to and he wants to play his part in making sure that it ends the way it is intended to go. Famous last words.

I can’t believe I have typed this much and there is still so much more to go.

In their trip to Heaven, Sam and Dean meet Ash and Pamela. Ash is amazing, he was one character I would have loved to see more of and he is still as cool as ever and it was amazing to have him back on the show.

But what I want to talk about is Pamela’s conversation with Dean. She tells Dean that the worst case scenario is Heaven and Heaven is all about reliving life’s happiest moments, so really how bad could things be. Even if the apocalypse kills a bunch of people they get to come to Heaven which is not so bad and Pamela definitely sees it as a better place. When I initially watched the show this made a lot of sense to me and I didn’t exactly get Dean’s POV and this time around I am totally on Dean’s side. Heaven is run by angels, you are in their control and more importantly the fact is that you aren’t alive. We can‘t just all kill ourselves even if the evidence points to the fact that Heaven is a better place because free will only exists on Earth, the place where your decisions can actually make a difference. Living beats dying even if Heaven trumps Earth and I’m on Dean’s side.

The most important thing to come out of this episode is the loss of faith. Cas’ loses his faith in God when it becomes clear that all the efforts he put into finding God were for naught and the righteousness that was the wind beneath his wings falls away. Cas believed that God wouldn’t want the end of the World especially when he brought him back. Cas believed he was brought back to stop the apocalypse and he puts all his efforts into it, buoyed by the fact that God wants it that way and now that hope is all but dashed as Cas crumbles under the rubble of his faith in his father.

The second person who loses faith is Dean. Dean comes to Heaven and sees two memories one of him and Sam as they spend one 4th of July lighting up firecrackers in an empty field and one of him and his mother when she is in the middle of a bad fight with John.

Dean’s heaven is memories of his family while Sam’s best memories are spending a Thanksgiving Dinner at a friend’s place, about living two weeks by himself and about the day he left his family behind to go to college. And as Dean comes to realise this truth he wonders whether he and Sam were ever on the same page.

Dean: Your heaven is somebody else's Thanksgiving, okay? It's bailing on your family. I mean, what do you want me to say? Sam: Man, I never got the crusts cut off my PB&J... I just don't look at family the way you do. Dean: Yeah, but *I'm* your family. We're supposed to be a team, it's supposed to be you and me against the world, right? Sam: Dean, it is. Dean: ...Is it?

What I found most heartbreaking is when Sam reminds him that going to Stanford was a happy memory because he finally got away from Dad and Dean reminds him he wasn’t the only one Sam got away from.

At the end of the episode when Dean drops the amulet that Cas returned into a garbage bin, the message is clear. Dean’s lost faith in Sam. The amulet is an interesting artifact in this context when they had faith the amulet was invaluable to Cas and Dean but as soon as they lose faith Cas doesn't want it any longer and neither does Dean. It's interesting how faith is the difference between something being indispensable and something being garbage.

I can’t believe I have talked so much and I still have more to say. This epsiode is a treasure.

So, I couldn’t end this post without talking about John. John is prominently brought up twice in this episode. Once when Dean tells Sam that their parents' marriage was only perfect after Mary died. This made sense. Every marriage has tough spots and this was a particularly bad one for John and Mary. But John loved Mary and after her death it was easy to remember the good memories, it was easier to put her on a pedestal and fight a war in her name, so of course their marriage was perfect, immortalised forever in John’s heart. But the thing that got me was when Mary, stressed after her fight with John, is soothed by Dean. Dean who is what four years old and Sam has this to say about this - I didn’t know how long you have been cleaning up Dad’s messes. This makes more sense especially in light of another memory. It’s the memory of Sam running away from his family on Dean’s watch and Dean can’t even verbalise what happened when John came back. This is one piece of dialogue that is imcomplete but the words that aren’t spoken are practically engraved on your heart and the pain is hard to overlook. Sometimes, it's easy to forget how traumatic Dean's childhood was while Sam got to rebel, got to be who he wanted to be because John wasn't the only one raising Sam, Dean was too and Dean taught Sam that he was important, he was loved and valued something that John couldn't instil in Dean.

Dean is broken in the aftermath of this episode and if “My Bloody Valentine” had aired after this episode Dean being dead inside would have made a lot of sense, because presently Dean is dead inside. He has lost all faith and their every chance at averting the apocalypse has been dashed.

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SLAYER // ‘THE REPENTLESS KILLOGY’ IN THEATRES WORLDWIDE NOVEMBER 6TH

SLAYER - Tom Araya, Kerry King, Gary Holt and Paul Bostaph - along with Trafalgar Releasing, Nuclear Blast Records and Prime Zero Productions, are pleased to announce the upcoming release of the new short narrative film and concert, ‘Slayer: The Repentless Killogy’, coming to theatres worldwide for a one-night event on November 6th.  Due to be screened in over 1,500 theatres around the world. Tickets will be on sale starting October 9th at www.slayer.film. Revenge, murder, bloodshed and retribution. ‘The Repentless Killogy’ film was written and directed by BJ McDonnell, who conceived and directed the three brutal music videos - 'You Against You,' 'Repentless,' and 'Pride In Prejudice' - for SLAYER's final studio album ‘Repentless’ (2015).

"When we set out to do these initial three videos," said McDonnell, "our intention was to continue the saga of SLAYER and Wyatt at some point down the line. But this is the band's final album and world tour so this story, the three videos and the ‘Repentless’ live concert at The Forum, is a perfect way to wrap up. This is the end of the monsters." Uncompromising and unmissable, part one of ‘Slayer: The Repentless Killogy’ begins with the powerful short narrative film that brings together the music of SLAYER and the grisly story they wanted to tell. Opening with the trilogy of music videos assembled as one chronological storyline, we are introduced to the narrative's main character Wyatt, a former neo-Nazi associated with a gang known as 'The Hand Brotherhood,' whose signature mark was a bloody handprint left after a murder had taken place. ‘The Repentless Killogy’ stars many of the actors who appeared in the original video series: Jason Trost (Beats Of Rage, Hatchet III) as Wyatt, Danny Trejo (Machete, From Dusk Til Dawn), Richard Speight (Band Of Brothers, Supernatural), Derek Mears (Agents Of S.H.I.E.L.D.), Jessica Pimentel (Orange Is The New Black), Tyler Mane (X-Men, Halloween II), Bill Moseley (The Devil's Rejects, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2), Caroline Williams (The Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2, Sharknado 4), and Sean Whalen (Twister, The People Under The Stairs).

Part II of The Repentless Killogy features SLAYER's entire live set performed at the Los Angeles Forum on August 5, 2017 and was directed by Wayne Isham who has directed videos for artists including METALLICA, FOO FIGHTERS, MICHAEL JACKSON, KELLY CLARKSON, and BRITNEY SPEARS. Presented in front of one of the most striking stage productions of the band's career, SLAYER performs fan-favourites, including 'South Of Heaven,' 'War Ensemble,' 'Mandatory Suicide,' 'Dead Skin Mask,' 'Raining Blood,' and 'Angel Of Death.'

Following the global theatrical premiere, on November 8, the film will be available digitally and on Blu-ray, and the soundtrack from that concert will be released as both a two-disc vinyl and two CD packages.

Gerardo Martinez of Nuclear Blast Records said, "When SLAYER, the RSE family, BJ and I were talking about how thrilled we were with the outcome of the three videos from ‘Repentless’, never did we imagine that what we had in our hands was basically this piece of brutality that would end up in movie theaters worldwide. Everything from matching SLAYER's ferocity and heaviness in video form, to expanding into a longer narrative and live show has created the perfect SLAYER atmosphere. We are beyond thrilled to give fans around the world the opportunity to join us on November 6 to witness a pure slab of f*ckin' insanity!"

Marc Allenby, CEO of Trafalgar Releasing, added, "Trafalgar Releasing are pleased to be collaborating with SLAYER, the team at Nuclear Blast and the RSE Group on the upcoming global cinema release of ‘Slayer: The Repentless Killogy.’ The film expertly demonstrates how SLAYER has become one of the most influential metal bands of the last three decades, bringing together the creative forces of film and music to create a must see on the big screen. We look forward to seeing how fans react when they come together for this unique experience."

2019 has seen a strong year for music releases from Trafalgar Releasing in cinema around the world. Recent successes include ‘Bring The Soul: The Movie’, which became the single largest event cinema release globally, GRATEFUL DEAD's 9th annual meet-up at the movies, Tribeca documentary ‘Between Me And My Mind’ about PHISH frontman, Trey Anastasio, ‘Rush: Cinema Strangiato 2019′ and ‘The Cure: Anniversary 1978-2018 Live in Hyde Park London.’ Today sees the global release of ‘Roger Waters: Us + Them’, which received its world premiere at the Venice International Film Festival last month.

Trafalgar Releasing's upcoming music slate also includes Metallica & San Francisco Symphony: S&M², Depeche Mode: SPIRITS In The Forest and Shakira In Concert: El Dorado World Tour. The London based outfit have previously released films including Coldplay: A Head Full of Dreams, The Music Center presents Joni 75: A Birthday Celebration, Khalid: Free Spirit, One More Time With Feeling, among others.

‘Slayer: The Repentless Killogy’ will be screened in cinemas around the world on November 6th. Tickets are on-sale from October 9th at slayer.film, where fans can find the most up-to-date information regarding participating theatres and sign up for event alerts.

Pre-order Slayer: The Repentless Killogy now: http://nuclearblast.com/slayer-killogy

Pre-order Slayer: The Repentless Killogy (Live At The Forum In Inglewood, CA) digitally and receive an instant download of the single 'Repentless (live).' 

The single is also available on all streaming services. Listen now at https://geni.us/SlayerKillogy.

Listen to 'Repentless (live)' in the NB New Releases Playlists: http://nblast.de/SpotifyNewReleases / http://nblast.de/AppleMusicNewReleases More on Slayer: The Repentless Killogy: 'Repentless' OFFICIAL LIVE VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqvvaY2LvuI SLAYER live: 02.10. BR São Paulo - Espaço das Américas 04.10. BR Rio de Janeiro - Rock in Rio 06.10. RCH Santiago - Santiago Gets Louder 08.10. RCH Vina Del Mar – Valparaiso Sporting Club 11.10. USA Manchester, TN - Exit 111 »The Final Campaign« w/ PRIMUS, MINISTRY, PHILIP H. ANSELMO & THE ILLEGALS 02.11. USA Asheville, NC - ExploreAsheville.com Arena 03.11. USA Raleigh, NC - PNC Arena 05.11. USA Salem, VA - Civic Center 06.11. USA Hershey, PA - Giant Center 08.11. USA Springfield, MA - MassMutual Center 09.11. USA New York, NY - Madison Square Garden 11.11. USA Louisville, KY - KFC Yum! Center 12.11. USA Columbus, OH - Nationwide Arena 14.11. USA Moline, IL - TaxSlayer Center 15.11. USA Sioux Falls, SD - Denny Sanford PREMIER Center 17.11. USA Fargo, ND - Fargodome 18.11. USA Omaha, NE - CHI Health Center 20.11. USA Colorado Springs, CO - Broadmooe World Arena 22.11. USA Billings, MT - Rimrock Auto Arena 24.11. USA Spokane, WA - Arena 26.11. USA Oakland, CA - Oracle Arena 27.11. USA Las Vegas, NV - MGM Grand Garden Arena 29.11. USA Los Angeles, CA - The Forum 30.11. USA Los Angeles, CA - The Forum *SOLD OUT*

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